Monday, October 7, 2013

Being an adult

So, I'm 21 now.

How does it feel like being 21? Well, no difference. Nothing significant happened on that day, but I sure do get lots of presents! Wippeeee! :D

Boyfriend organized a party for me, though I sort of expected that it will be held at his house. His plan didn't go very smoothly that day. We bought Laser tag coupons from Groupon for ourselves and friends. Unfortunately, we did not read the terms and conditions that its only valid on weekdays not weekends. It was a careless mistake that we did not read it prior to buying it. We were supposed to meet up with everyone else at 430pm, but most of them reached late. Everyone was putting the blame on us, especially my boyfriend. I dislike it when Tarvin's like "Omg, you stupid, you should not have planned anything at all, it will never turn out well". Hey, my boyfriend has feelings too okay :( Some even gave suggestions to go for a karaoke. Only half of them are willing to pay RM55 for laser tag (without the coupon).

I know he's stressed up planning things for me. That day, I felt a tinge of loneliness. In the morning, N went out with Kylie to buy things for my birthday surprise. On our way there, he kept on calling me "Your majesty", picking me up from my house with his "chariot". Yes, I'm flattered that I actually felt like I'm a queen. Wahaha! For once :) When we reached Mid Valley, I tried talking to him. But he's always on his phone, texting & calling. I know he planned things for me, that's why I didn't want to bother him that much. Probably he's stressed up. That's when I felt lonely. I tried talking to him, giving him suggestions, or even asking him questions, he will just take a glance at me and look away.

When Kylie talks to him about anything at all, like when she wants to buy a new phone, or was even fascinated with the Astro "tweeting" thingy, he will talk to her, and walk with her. So, I guess I will just walk behind of them, since he ignored me. If you would think it's jealousy, I don't think so. I just feel like I'm being ignored.

Luckily Riyal managed to persuade the Laser Tag management to let us use our coupons on that day, since it's my birthday and it's hard to gather everyone together for that day. Things went smoothly, but N keeps on blaming himself. Sigh. I don't want him to feel that way. It makes me sad when he's stressed up or sad. I was also sad that time cause I couldn't do anything. I don't even know what's going on.

Laser tag with friends was awesome :) We played 3 games, and it feels much different being a member and a non-member. You get much more privileges being a member, with automatic gun etc etc. Then everyone bid their farewells and told me that they will see me some other time, since my boyfriend have "dinner plans" with me. But the truth is, they went back home to get ready for the party :')

What makes me sad that day too was when Kylie and Ronald argued over a small matter. Ronald's being an egoistic boyfriend who will never admit his mistakes and will never try to make things right. Kylie has a princessy/egoistic temper that she will not call him, and will frown or even walk away to somewhere and everyone will have to go around looking for her. I tried my bestest to calm her down, offered my hugs, trying to make her laugh, but she rejected everything. Ronald was supposed to fetch her back, but he walked away without her. I told her that N can fetch her back, but she doesn't want to. Time was delayed. But Tarvin dragged her to a corner to talk about it. N just went off while me standing waiting for him. He went off to find her. I no longer feel important. Feels like, my feelings doesn't matter to him.

Then he fetched me back to wash up and get ready for dinner. But when I reached his house, someone pat my back as I entered the door. I was like "who could that be?" To my surprise, it was Chee Guan, Eng Siew and Steven. Ahh sneakyy :) But dayum, Chee Guan spoiled the surprise. But I didn't want to say anything. N was very surprised when Chee Guan did that. So N asked me to wash up, while he will stay downstairs to do something. Ahh, I see. "Something" you mean.

When I got ready, he said that my friends will be joining us for dinner elsewhere. Okay but when I went downstairs, I saw Lyn, Chris's girlfriend. So, I thought "Heck, this will only ruin Nat's plan". So I pretended to ask N if she's joining us for dinner too. He said yes. When he knows that his plan to surprise me is somewhat gonna fail, he told me "Huiee, just do whatever that I ask you to do okay? Be a good girl, and don't ask so much"

We then head to De'Amour cafe to just catchup while "waiting" for dinner. We had coffee & light snacks. We waited will 10pm when N told me "Huiee, I know you're hungry, but just wait for awhile okay?" Soon, we head back to his house, cause apparently he "left something" in his house. As usual, I won't want to spoil his plans that I acted dumb saying "Oh, why did you off your car engine? Can't I wait in your car while you go get it?" He's like, it's not good to wait in the car.

When we opened the door, it was pitch black. He whispered into my ears saying "Dear, I'm sorry that I couldn't give you the best surprise, cause everything didn't go as planned"

To my surprise, there was papers on the floor written "Happy Birthday Hui Ee, time to grow up". It was supposed to glow, but the glow in the dark paint didn't work. Though I was not surpised at all but I appreciate it. What surprised me the most was, everyone was dressed up in suits and the girls dressed up in formal dresses! Like a mafia gang. Everyone look so good that day, including N. That's the best surprise.

There's ups and downs that day. N's mum wasn't happy that he had the party in his house (Though we usually organize parties in his house). I guess, it's just me. I felt bad that she had to cook dinner and prepare for my birthday party, that I offered my help. But she rejected it. I kept on saying 'thank you, thank you for everything to her" but she still seemed abit unhappy. I didn't enjoy myself at all during the party knowing that his mum is unhappy.

My closest friends went back early cause they have to work the next day. I just hope that they could at least stay a little longer for me. My dearest bought me a princess cake, when he knows like I love being treated like a princess. TEEHEE. We didn't really drink that much that day. In fact, just a glass. The plan to get me drunk, failed afterall. I kinda felt disappointed when N didn't get my any present for our anniversary or even my birthday. I just want a personal gift from him. A personal one. Not something that he shared with others to buy for me. A handmade card/gift is enough to make me happy.

But, overall i love spending time with my close friends that night. Everyone was suited up for me, celebrated for me. Indeed, I feel blessed to have them as my close friends and N, as my dearest. I love them all :)